Ambria-Sornia

AGAIN! And it made me very sad... Moving out in a month. Whoot for apartment! And yay for free furniture thanks to my awesome friends! I really really do need to revap this place....its collecting dust. *blows dust* *sneezes* Its on my list. I promise..... Ah, well, with out the boyfriend I think maybe I can start on other projects. Boys are stupid. Lets throw rocks at them. I am lazy. Throw a rock at me and I'll cry and make you feel bad. Last night reminded me of being back in high school as a freshman. It really was beyond retarded. >.< I needs food particals. They make it better. =^.^= Toodles!

Its surprising how quickly my moods shift. I need to fix that... ARGH, where is the balance I so desire!? Me Against the World Wanna quit and give up Simon says to pack it up Shot down from all sides Don't know why I try So take this and kiss it Goodbye won't miss it I wanna go back to L.A. I don't belong that's what they say Chorus: They said don't try to change the world You're just a girl So it's..me against the world today I'm gonna do it my own way And though nobody understands I'm gonna make a one girl stand It's not Independence Day I can't waste time on what they say If we believe when we have faith We're gonna ch

These thoughts are not mine, neither are these actions. I can't really be this way, I never was before. I'd hate to think that this is what I've ended up as, for all my trying. But perhaps its just a by-product of my stress, my internalized anger, my sorrow, and my fear. I certainly hope so. Though she's been screaming at me much more often, and her words have gotten far more cutting. I scream back of course, but sometimes methinks its a losing battle. o.O I haven't lost yet, not this time. I gave in a few years ago, but I only hurt myself in the end really. I doubt I gave any lasting scars to him, no matter what she tells me. Sad thing